rolling like dice
the conditions they are pushing me, squeezing me to the left side
and to the right
direction’s lost have to claim onto books and papers
nomore
anyothers thought
prefer to rely on my instincts and on my hate
it’s hatred
brewing inside
i realise it gets easy to lose my mind
ya-ha-ha-ha
ho-ho-ho
i hate you more than him
i hate you more than him
i rape your thought, then flee
i rape your thought, then flee
writing articles,
can’t see a good in criticizing,
proposing solutions
eyes on TV screen
exaggerated, humiliating, mediatic
yaa-yaa...

to the times when i tried to resists your selfish ways
i remember long hollow nights when i couldn’t get to sleep at all
thinking of ways to stand this life you never forgive
if you think i’ve misused you
it’s time i’m fucking sorry
to get along well
i ignored everything about your rotten kinf
i tried to enter minds realm
i begged him there to take me away
left was no ripping right, i got no chance
there’s a way to forgive me
inside i’m fucking sad
ch:
the only solution to rescue me
now you see i did accept
what i once dismissed
i became just another bit in tihs wholesome pit
healed is my mind from all the hate and all dismay
don’t think i disobey you as one of your fucking kind
to get along well
ch:
i shall be serving anytime you raise your hand
i shall be giving... anytime you raise your head
anytime
you raise your hand
i ignored (x2)

days are pathetic
crumbling down on my own as i’m drifting
same or different
ill omens or me introducing
i will be worn out
days will be crossed out
with notes i scribble on my calender
about things i’ve felt
about things i’ve done
ch:
confronted with confusion
i won’t take it anymore
left me out inclusion
days are empty
i move inside my shell, inside me
search for something or nothing
where’s someone, i need someone beside me
it makes me angry
thiss lust and envy
all the extraordinary seems so different
i look around myself and see the same
ch:

through all of my day dreams
the finals seem too hard to cope
dreams about my future
profession lies there underground
i take it, answer it, don’t wanna be a hypocrite
noo ! i did not cheat here, on tests i always be good student
a good student
ch:
i like it-i hate it
no question- gotta pull through hard-anyhow
too hard to decive one
soap in my project it hits all eyes
nights, they all are sleepless
i’ll graduate when i hit the ground
one begins, some ends, i wanna answer all that’s scars
in labs, the way they treat me
reports i wrote, they form a paper sea
a big white sea
ch:
old life is now ending
a very new one is to start
plans for further study, to gain more time not to face the mud
the army calls to me
preparing for some special tests
oooh, i gotto know it
will i be able to get my final chance
final chance
i like it-i hate it
no quaestion gotto pull through hard
anyhow
i like it-i hate it
i love it despite the pain-anyhow....

now you know i have to go
your past won’t let me love you more
relations mean no thing to me at lasty
i reject what i should enclose
excessively-i’m human
i fall....
ch:
things may change to good, or bad
what’s passed has always burnt my inside, my soal
the things you could not change, they hunt you
if they’re yours, or not ?
i value them much for sure
to life a bond was you i know
it’s hard to keep me from being ripped apart
but i think i will stay some more...
excessively-i’m human
i fall....
ch:

decisisons cancelled in my head
turning point, no time delay
drink and pee, official joy
down and out, cannot enjoy
cans of beer, pucking wine
a rumor circulating fine
patience, over-heating time
head in closet worths no dime
hidden insecurity, blossoms dirt, impurity
long-lost, pissed off, blow excessive energy
ch:
all we do is really making nothing
or to try to have a good time

what’s all this mess,
and all the papers
lying around and you like shit on the sofa
why don’t you answer me?
come n’ wash the dishes please !
you never react to anything around you
“i guess you really don’t live, don’t you ?”
your brain gains fat
waste father’s money
to eat and shit and sleep, waste time and status without worry,
you’ve got your car beneath
why do still sit here ?
you’ll never, never, never move
“get along, get along, be alone”
<no will for anything to learn, no way to improve
ch:
you’re living your end, you’re leading to your end, yourself...(2x)
impervious
skin thick as leather
like a rhino, instinctively effected only and only by the weather
in front of the TV
12 hours sleep within
wake up, wake up, wake up too late
“it’s far too late for you, my son”
<no will for anything to learn, no way to improve
ch:

as the pockets lose weight
superstition is strong again
now god is trendy
as the suffering starts, a reflection is expectable
and if future looks grey
and still no movement is roaring
this will put us back
in jam, we flies are hopeless
attention to what is not worth
but whole world lacks rationality
division of so-called “left” and “right”
just keeps all the filth on the same side
i live and i learn
what should be emphasized
so when everything is over
looking back won’t feel so nice
ch:
here i’m talking to the radical
don’t you think of me as one of you
on this volume of a book not close
do not let more people die for more...
islamic fascists progressed
now they dare to declare
so-called democratic idiocy
cradle for state terrorism and conspiracy
wr’re lost in masses
the pressure is intense
tensiom rises
that forgotten howling starts again
whoever says “i came from inside”
tends to know how things turn out to be
and i spit on the faces of whom sympathize
american-type democracy
a minus symbolizes my thoughts
as white has turned to grey
and now grey proceeds to black...
ch:
...as you get undressed for some wrestling.....
....motherf****r.....
as color boxes wash our brains
any ideology is born dead
stop

my head is flickerin’ around
i had enough of, worn out like old leather
i’m searchin’ all around to find a place to rest,
i’m light as feather
walls are closin’ in-heat is rising
n’ pullin’ me down fast-when will it last?
here i stand again-left with nothing
here on my own as i sweat
gettin’ better-life tough as leather
i need to be away to find a place
with girls to make me better
this season brings me down
makes me tired
“spring” i hate this weather
i’m still searchin’ for something
i feel like debris
i’m like a ruin or something
can you tell me honestly you’ve never felt that before
can you really say to me you’ve never seen one crawl
the heat and sweat is coming down n’ up my spine
i hate this feelin’ – sweatin’ down my spine
like debris
down n’ out
like debris

wait for me
sweet sacred bliss
only illusion in your eyes to be paid
you wanna die
I’m buried alive
I can’t make you stay or live to live my own life
The moments short
New days to be born
Move on forever and ever
Rolling-eachothers time
Rolling-anothers time
Bold as it seems
it flows like a stream
on and on forever and ever
my temples bleeched
you’ve early reached-early than me
Moments flash before my eyes

When the time comes to end the show
And it gets hard to see her roll
The circle closes and forms a toll
Which forms a new life continues on and on
We are chasing anothers time
We are chasing each others time
Man follows man
They just don’t understand
We take a ride to the place
But it’s no promised land
You ask who’s kidding who
I just try to live through
But who knows

woke up too early
the mirror laughed at me
a problem’s a joke somebody’s making me
a dead rat in my bed
bad-tampered-i rush-i rush
suffering’ in the morning
it’s a hard time
spots occured on me
reminding me of my old days
i cannot answer, i even don’t know what the question is

i am a clown, a little dwarf, little worm
don’t see light, no-no-never-never
inside the circus amusing you, change skin and color
for you, don’t stand out-never-never...
ch:
i am a clown, a little dwarf
inside my home i’m all alone
i never stop, i always run
inside my hell, outside the dawn
inside i’m blown, outside the dawn
inside i’m blown away
i am the dwarf, i say the things that you want
don’t laugh, just make you laugh-laughing-laughing
the wrongs are right-that’s what i do agree with
make-ups can change, but mine won’t- never-never...
ch:
do think you can catch me-hah-you’re wrong
i appear in every shape and form, but i’m still the dwarf
and there’s only one thing you gotto know
i change never-i change forever
... never...
the dwarf...
i am a clown
a little dwarf....never...

what will it take for you to see
the truth that’s twisted well
the truth you can’t just see through
filth has to be washed away
i don’t know how long and what it’ll take
i don’t care
our will pulls us through
pulls us through
aaaa-aaaaaa
don’t wonder why all crashed down
rage comes to surface
a day for the ones that dominate
real labor, class work on its way
they never let you go, free insdie
their force
provacates and just lies
it’s just a lie
aaaa-aaaaa
(2x)
i saw a little light
burning bright, a scarlet flag
so beautiful
voices of their master
sing as choir so perfect
provacation lies
uncowardly-hopelessly-dishonesty-indignity
it’s somewhere out there, we will escape
dishonesty-integrity-falsehood breed-down with it
it’s somewhere out there, for us to see
it’s somewhere out there, for us to see